this week (25-30/11/10)

Woosh... The week has finally over. This has been a very intellectual and happy week. It starts with the recent win on house competition, continued with the Heriot-Watt conditional offer and last but not least, the very satisfying IELTS exam. I'm quite proud with myself and I think, I'm on the right track to pursue my target, A*AAA in the A-Level exam next June.

BTW, I will have a quite calm next week followed by another examination week. I'll be prepared to face it. Another thing is, I really wish that I can start playing volleyball as usual as I really miss it. Perhaps, this afternoon I'll try to convince my friends (seniors and juniors) to go to the court and play the game (really need to go out of chalet and moves my muscle a bit - lol).

Before I sign out, love yourself before you love others, but put the love to God on top of everything else.

English Literature, I'll ace it!

at last

I have finished my IELTS speaking exam today. 'Advertisement'. That's my topic and I'm thankful for that because Ms Madeline has made us discuss the topic in our previous class. Thank you Farha, I still remember your 'Oligo Coco' presentation and it really helps in describing the advertisement.

Next stop is tomorrow's remaining papers and not forgetting my 10/11 and 12/11 English Literature papers. I really hope that I can get a very good results on those papers. Best of luck to me.

IELTS

Hey everyone. Tomorrow morning I will have my IELTS speaking test and the following Saturday, I'll have my IELTS reading, listening and writing tests. It sure is a hectic weekend for me. The overall band that I must achieve is 6.5 but I had promised myself that I want to be better than my sister and she got 6.0 before.

On next Monday, the MCC will have it's official meeting for a few reasons. the upcoming Bangsawan is the main agenda. Other than that, we need to elect the new committee for the Dikir Barat & Traditional Dance Competition 2011. So juniors, be ready to grab this responsibilities.

Unfortunately, Syazwan is still in the same condition although his parents say that he is improving. I'll keep praying for him. Who knows what miracle could happened right. Last but not least;

"Nothing that is so is so, that that is is."

the unexpected...

The mini marathon was successfully organized last Saturday. What makes me proud the most is our house managed to clinch the House with the Healthiest Hearts Award. Furthermore, I also won the King of Health Award for the Daily-Quiz competition. We managed to retain this title for the second year in a row. To make it more meaningful, we created a big difference in the accumulative points from the second place winner.

Sadly, one of my friend doesn't make it to the finishing line as he was attacked by seizure about 200 meters from the finishing line. He was in the top 40 position at that particular time. I'm so proud of him because he is the living proof that hard work can lead to success. 

However, right now he is still in a critical condition in Slim River Hospital. He was admitted to the ICU right after the marathon. It's heartbreaking when someone who is always cheerful and exciting to talk with immobile and silent on a hospital bed. His organs do not functioning anymore and that makes his condition worse.

To all who have time to read this, let us pray for his safety and so that he can come back alive and lively as before.

an apple

It's depressing right now as there is no internet connection at the chalet area. Well, this is not the first time something like this happen. I just hope that it will get better (the usual reason is the upgrading work - hope that it is true). By the way, I got back my application today and I have to make a few small corrections. To apply to top universities, perfection is vital.

I just got back my English Literature result. As expected, it was better than my other subjects. When will I improve my other results? I hope it is now. But I have this 'malicious' quality, laziness. I know it exist in everyone's life but I think I have it worst. Let time cures it then.

This Saturday, there will be a marathon due to the Health Awareness Week (HAW) in my college. I try to take part in the daily quiz competition and it is quite interesting as there are so much general information that I've discovered by joining this quiz. There are so much more to health than exercises and diet. And what is more important, the actual idea of diet itself. It is not about cutting the amount of food consumed but take the correct amount of food with the correct amount of nutritions needed by our bodies.

I sound like a doctor now (lol). Last but not least, eat right and lead a healthy life!

Remember,

"An apple a day, keeps the doctor away."

something...

Bungkam...

Mengapa harus ada cinta

Jika akhirnya menyendiri

Mengapa ada kasih

Jika akhirnya menyisih

Mengapa ada rindu

Jika akhirnya hanyut dalam sendu

Kepiluan yang mencengkam

Dalam ke lubuk hati

Ditinggal dalam kegelapan

Ditelan kabus kepiluan

Hanyut ditelan sejarah silam

Membiarkan aku sendiri

Aku tak mahu terluka

lagi. Takut, aku tak mampu.

Tak mampu menanggung kesedihan

Jika aku ditinggalkan lagi

keseorangan.

Menempuh malam-malam suram

Sendiri...

(Something I wrote during one of my class... lol)

What more to say?

Yup, that's what I'm thinking right now.

"What more to say?"

The semester results.

After not even one week, the results are already here in my hand.

Is this what I want? Can I do better? Do I want to?

Well, as a student that's my responsibility, whether I love it or not.

Yes, I said love. I often heard that we need to love the knowledges before we can fully understand them.

Hopefully I can love it with all my heart before my real exam.

Erase that, I need to love them starting now.

I'll strive for the best because I know, I'm the best!

love

What is love? Is there such thing as true love? Can we be with our beloved for the rest of our lives? These are the questions that have been swimming in my mind for a few days now. As Tong says to Mew in 'The Love of Siam', a movie which has been nominated for the Best Foreign Film in 2008 Oscar Awards,

"I can't be with you as your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you"

Is it true? Can we sacrifice for our loves? Are we willing to put everything aside for the sake of our loves? I seriously don't think that it is necessary. Loving doesn't mean that we have to be with that person 24/7 but at least we should know what happened in their lives. It is that simple. Respect and tolerance; two of the most powerful recipe in a relationship.

There are so many types of love in this life. Familial love, reciprocated love, self love, unconditional love, contract love and so on. But, is it fair for a person to loose someone they loved so much after facing so much obstacles?

In 'Bangkok Love Story', a target fall in love with his supposed-to-be killer (the killer realizes that he is innocent and released him). However, their love does not last long as they had promised. The killer was shot (the use of silencer) while he is holding the target's hand just after the former was released from the prison. After a few lonely years, they finally manage to meet each other again and have the chance to complete their promise.

But no, the lover was killed for his past without having the time to say 'I love you' to his partner. He does not even have time to be 'the eyes for (his partner) forever' as he had promised. And to make it more tragic, the partner is blind. How cruel is that! I'm emotional when I'm writing this because it is unfair! They deserve to be happy after all those terrible years. Just imagine a blind man crying his lungs out beside his dead beloved in the rain. That scene shattered my heart into pieces.

What I can do now is pray. Pray for that special someone to fill my empty heart. Fill the spot left by someone whom I thought is my better half for the rest of my life. I'll just pray for that person to come and rebuild my confidence in relationship.

Is there any true love?

Is there any true lover?

Is there any true happiness?

Is there anything left to love in this world?

Only time will tell and I'll just pray for that moment... till my last breath...

Friendship

"...I had a friend,

Whom I love so much, whom I respect,

But that person is no longer by my side,

Due to our own fault..."

It is heart-rendering when I realize that I no longer have that person by my side, inside my life. This is terrible, we should not let that happened and tear us apart from one another. But I know that this is the best solution. We must not be together anymore though it is killing me when I can see them but I cannot approach them or even say 'Hi' to them.

Oh God, please help me.

Now, the best thing that have ever happened to me also seems to put a distance between us. What did I do wrong? Please tell me so I can correct it. If you have found someone else, tell me! Confront me! Don't let me hang alone in this dark sphere. It is mortifying. One moment you're there and a second later, you're gone. Hopefully this examination week can put away some of my worries aside and help me focus on my study.