Sunday, April 19, 2015

Electric

Gosh, how long has it been. 2 years, 3... A lot has transpired during these period. Good, not so good, not too bad and plain disaster. Well can't help it, life goes on, how long might that be... Just wanna write a quick note here I guess. At least someone, someday, somewhere can stumble upon these words and say "Life is worth living."

Knowing someone dear to you is facing a very brutal disease, despite that someone being brave about it should make us more prone to create happy memories, right? Then come the bombshell...

You yourself met your ultimate fate... Biding your time...

There's only so much medicines can do, well, at least I have the taste of loving and being love, one way or another...

Can't complain much now can I. Human instincts will first kick in saying "I did not deserve this!" Nothing much can be done though :)

I can't be mad at the world, it has never turn its back on me.

I digress...

~The end is near, whatever I do
Some say "Screw this!" but I say "It's overdue"
Clasping hands at the top of the mountain
Thrusting my chest at the world
Letting a pool of crystals on my dimple
That's my final bloom

Sunday, October 21, 2012

October updates

Hey guys... It has been a long time since I wrote something life-related here :) Just being busy and lazy as usual... Anyway, there's a lot that happened for the past few weeks... There're classes, talks, practices, events and holidays...

For one, I'm currently in a drama production (choreography department - as usual). It will be staged around early November at Swinburne Sarawak... This is a new thing for me coz I need to explore the creativeness of the 70's society... Yes, it's based on a 70's movie called GREASE... :) Can't wait to see it on stage...

Other than that, there's assignments and quizzes and talks... Academic-related stuff... Nothing much to talk about there other than the fact that FINANCE WORLD IS COMPLICATED but INTERESTING... Once u past all the theories part that is :) Nevertheless, I'm starting to like the idea of working in a financial world and investment.

Next, for the past few days I've joined the Foster Family program in Kampung Pueh, Sematan... It's a Bidayuh Salako long-house... Being close to nature is something that I miss the most about that place... There's even a particular view that reminds me of New Zealend and Langkawi... It's a nice and enjoyable stay to say the least... There's only 12 of us (8 students, 4 staffs)...

We went river cruising, hiking (just a short distance until we reach the natural dam), relaxing by the beach (where we're the only people exist at the beach), playing games with the kids, went to the dock (watching the fisherman did their things), and last but not least the spending times with the families in the long-house. It's truly exciting and I hope I could find the time to go there again :)

So, that's the summary of what I went through for the past few weeks... Currently preparing myself for the upcoming presentations and assignments due date plus the exams... only 6 weeks to go before finals and 8 weeks left before semester holidays... Wish me good luck guys and hope u guys will have a great life too :)

Saturday, October 06, 2012

The Man You Love

A song by Il Divo... I just realise that Spanish is the best language to express love and despair... I'm hooked to this song without understanding the lyrics but just by listening to it... Hope u guys will enjoy it as mush as I do :)


Si me ves hallarás en mis ojos el amor
eres tú la mitad que a mi vida completó
Lo que soy te daré sin miedo a algun error
creo en ti y dejaré en tus manos mi ilusión.
Quiero estar dentro de tu corazón,
Poder lograr que me ames como yo.

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

Quiero ser el lugar donde puedas refugiar
el temor y calmar en mis brazos tu ansiedad
Desde hoy voy a ser todo para ti
Hasta ayer te soñé y ahora estás aquí
Quiero oir tus secretos, lo que sueñes descubrir,
quiero amarte así.

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

Just to be the man you love

Wicked Game

A song originally sung by Chris Isaak and popularise by Il Divo...


The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you.

No, I don't want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I don't want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you (This world is only gonna break your heart)

What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you.
What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
What a wicked thing to do, to make me dream of you and,

I want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you.

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you.
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do.
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you.
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you,

No, I want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I want to fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart)
With you (This world is only gonna break your heart)
No, I... (This world is only gonna break your heart)
(This world is only gonna break your heart)

Nobody loves no one.

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

Dark Side

A brand new song by Kelly Clarkson... It's great :)


There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
What can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away

Don't run away
Promise you'll stay

Saturday, September 08, 2012

The fighter

This is a song from Gym Class Heroes feat. Ryan Tedder... I love the lyrics and I hope none of of will gave up on anything and keep on being "THE FIGHTER".


Just waking up in the morning
And to be well,
Quite honest with ya,
I ain't really sleep well
Ya ever feel like your train of thought's been derailed?
That's when you press on - Lee nails
Half the population's just waitin to see me fail
Yeah right, you're better off trying to freeze hell
Some of us do it for the females
And others do it for the retail

But I do it for the kids, life threw the towel in on
Every time you fall it's only making your chin strong
And I'll be in your corner like Mick, baby, 'til the end
Or when you hear a song from that big lady

[Bridge]
Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

[Verse 2]
And if I can last thirty rounds
There's no reason you should ever have your head down
Six foot five, two hundred and twenty pounds
Hailing from rock bottom, loserville, nothing town

Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast
And now I'm yelling, "Kiss my ass"
It's gonna take a couple right hooks, a few left jabs
For you to recognize you really ain't got it bad

[Bridge]
Until the referee rings the bell
Until both your eyes start to swell
Until the crowd goes home
What we gonna do ya'll?

[Chorus - Ryan Tedder]
Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

Everybody put yo hands up
What we gonna do (hey!) [x4] y'all?
What we gonna do (hey!) [x3] y'all?

If you fall pick yourself up off the floor (get up)
And when your bones can't take no more (c'mon)
Just remember what you're here for
Cuz I know Imma damn sure

Give em hell, turn their heads
Gonna live life 'til we're dead.
Give me scars, give me pain
Then they'll say to me, say to me, say to me
There goes the fighter, there goes the fighter
Here comes the fighter
That's what they'll say to me, say to me, say to me,
This one's a fighter

'Til the referee rings the bell
'Til both ya eyes start to swell
'Til the crowd goes home,
What we gonna do kid?

Aku

*Just wanna share something that I've written on 30th April 2012... I've forgot what drove me to write it but here it is...

Deruan angin itu, tarian bayu itu,
Hembusan ombak itu, tangisan hujan itu,
Semuanya berulang di dalam mata hatiku,
Bermain di dalam kotak mindaku,
Ingin saja aku berlari,
Mengejar bayang yang tak pernah hilang,
Menghantui setiap detak nadiku,
Membeku kakukan setiap inci zarah
yang wujud dalam tubuhku.

Mungkin aku hanya sang pemikir
Yang tak pernah kenal erti hidup
Atau aku hanyalah di pinggir
atas kelalaian dan kekejaman fikiranku.
Mungkin juga aku haus
pada rindu yang tak pernahku tahu,
Membawaku pulang ke dunia hampa,
Tiada teman, tiada tawa.

Aku teringin kembali ke saat itu,
Saat di tegap berdiri menantiku
di hujung jalan penuh liku.
Namun aku gusar
Pernahkah itu wujud dalam sejarah hidupku?

Mungkin mereka benar,
Aku telah hanyut dalam dunia.....
dunia? Ya, dunia khayalanku.
Dunia yang tak pernah mungkin menjadi satu
Dunia yang penuh salju
Dunia yang hanya ada aku...