I'm an emo?

Hi guys, it's good to write something again although there's no one who will care about anything that I've wrote here. As I've said before, it's my sanctuary so I can write anything that I want here. He3, enough with all those nonsense, we'll go straight to the core of this post.

I believe I'm an emo. Ha3, go figure. Sometimes I'll feel very happy and in a second I'll become moody. Is there's any explanation on this change of mood. It's like a mood swing (though I'm never going to have period - lol).

To be more specific, I don't feel a damn thing right now. I know I'm quite disappointed with my performance in my recent final papers but all those regrets and remorse disperse simply just like the bubble on the beach. Am I being ignorant of my own feelings or am I simply don't care any more about my life. I'm miserable but I went through life as nothing is wrong. At one point or another, I feel like I'm living a pathetic life but that is the challenge that I need to face to have a meaningful life. Right?

I so don't know what to do right now even though this is my final examination week. I so don't have the will to push myself any more. Will I regret this moment later in my life? Can I simply shut my eyes and ignore everything that revolves around me? I seriously hope I could.

God, help me as I'm truly lost right now!

What am I going to be?

Hello guys. How's your week so far? Hope everything is good. Moving on to my topic for today; What am I going to be in 5 years time? Some of us might think that this is not a question to be asked to a 20 years old person. However, as wise man says "Our step today decides where we will land tomorrow." It is such a simple question but it is very hard to answer.

There's only one reason why I'm asking this.

1) I'm starting to doubt the choice of my future career!

I'm in a very massive dilemma whether to still involve myself in the world of numbers or take a 180' turn into the literature world. Why future is so complicated? Why can't it be as simple as choosing an ice cream flavour?

I'm at a junction which I seriously hate!

Btw, tomorrow I'll be facing my toughest paper of all time; Further Maths Applied. Am I ready yet? I really hope I am ready but again, NO SLEEP FOR ME TONIGHT!

p/s: Just hope that I'll not be late to the exam hall as my previous Further Maths Pure paper...