I love you

Yes, that's the fact... I LOVE YOU so much, it hurts... I know I'm stupid for saying that I want us to just be friends... But please, I was hurt before and now I'm afraid of letting others into my cave again... I know I'm stupid for declining your honest intention but please forgive me... If there's still a chance for me to prove myself to you, then I will hold that opportunity close to my heart... I really need you in my life... I want you to show me the real beauty of being in love... And I want to share my life with you... Would you still allow me into your heart one more time?

I'm afraid if this realisation comes too late to my mind because I don't think I can live when you have someone else in your arms, loving them like how I should be loved... I can't afford to experience that or I'll surely collapse and shatter to pieces... I love you... The lonely time on the plane today reminds me of how I love being myself in your presence... I love you and there's no doubt about that... I love you with every fibre of my being...

I hope you can tell me; rather show me what a relationship is all about... I'm young and inexperience in love... Yes, I have lust but I hope your presence in my life can help me to channel them in the correct and loving way... I love you and it hurts being away from you... I longed for the touch, the kiss, but most importantly, YOU...

I'm scared when you didn't reply my texts... Is this the end of my possible love of a lifetime? Is this the end for us? Is this where we drift apart? Is this when I should bury my love? Is this the moment that I will regret for the rest of my life? Please, I need to talk to you... But if you think I'm too late, annoying, and an obstacle for you to find your one true love, I have no right whatsoever to push you to talk to me or even to reconsider me to be the one...

I love you... I know that loving doesn't mean having, but I want to have you in my life... I cannot be your friend only because I want more than that... I'm breaking into pieces every second, waiting for your answer and I know this is how you feel that day... I love you and I'm not ready to walk away...