KYUEM

This hour is the second hour I'm in KY. I'm missing my home already... There's a lot of things that I need to leave at home in order to make this stay more educational. Do I??? Whatever it is, I'm now entering my last semester in KY which means I need to focus more to get the best result possible. With all the university application have been replied, what left now is for me to prove to all those universities that I'm the best candidate as one of their students.

It's been already about a month since the last time I need to put my room in order (so to speak). I'm quite tired right now as I didn't have much sleep last night. In fact, I haven't sleep since 12 pm yesterday. After the AJL 25 last night, I literally have to move by butt off to pack all of my things (1 big bag with about 4 small bags). That's a lot!

I still have tons of homework undone and I need to complete them by tonight. Seems like I'm not going to have my beauty sleep tonight... lol. Just finished unpacking my stuff and now I'm just chillexing (is this word already in the dictionary?) I'm going to start the homework in the afternoon. Hopefully, by that time I've regain all my strength and will to study again...

That's all for now peeps. Till we see again in the next post. Maybe I'll post one of my 'words' next time. Till then, bye...

YES!!!

Actually, I'm not as excited as the title shows. I only took the title due to the Year End Sale (YES) that is happening all over Malaysia right now (lol). In about four and a half hours from now, we will step into a whole new year with hopefully a whole new chances for us all to improve ourselves academically, physically or even spiritually. All these elements will promise us a shining future only if we strive to maximise their potential.

Well, I'm not here to talk (again) about the importance of coordination in our lives but mostly about our pasts. 2010 will leave us but there're 1001 stories marked in it. From the first second of 2010 till now, there're thousands of experiences; happy or sad, good or bad, on friendship, on love life, on family trouble or even our inner self dilemma; have put a significant role in creating at least an ounce of what we're today. Experience is a very big word in a human life.

Sometimes we matured from those incidents, sometimes we learnt something from them but sometimes we're so ignorant of what happened around us that at one point, when the same thing repeats itself on us, we chose to blame the fate and time. Is it fair for us to put the blame (literally) on others? "Life s***s!" "Life is unfair!" "I'm ****ing tired of life!" Is this our attitude after winning the ultimate race of living in our mother's womb. How ungrateful we are!

I think enough with the serious talk. This year I've learnt about love; loving others as well as loving myself and learning on how to let our beloved go. It is painful but I believe that if we love someone, we would surely want that person to be happy although it means we're back in the market (so to speak). Is it wrong to love? I've learnt from someone near the end of this year that love does not mean that we should be with the person forever. There're a lot of obstacles in love and at my current stage (a student), it is better for me to create a spider web of friends first.

As what the ancestors say, "Keep thousands of friends but love only one." It is true that love phase is mind blowing, amazing, breathtakingly beautiful and so many other metaphor and romantic description that was used to explain the feelings and emotion turmoil of the lovers. But, friendship is what remain till the end of our lives. It is our friend that will pray for us on our death bed and they're also the one who guide us and make us whoever we are in the future.

I've also learnt about the importance of time. The death of two people in my friends cycle really opened up my eyes that we will never live forever. We will never have a happy day forever and we will never be with a person forever and ever as we're mortal and we're bound to meet the Creator.

I'm shivering when I'm writing this as we will never know when it is our turn to meet Him. It is kind of creepy but at the same time, it makes me realise that I should make the best out of every second that in ticking in my life. Not one second wasted as each and every second is so precious as long as we breath. Farewell 2010 and welcome 2011.

I'll leave this year with a section of my poem;

"Life is cruel, life is unfair,

Life is hurtful and full of despair,

But life is also shimmering like Eden's flair,

As long as we're thankful for each intake of air"

Time Flies

Holidays are coming to an end (where did the time goes). There's almost nothing productive happened in this past one month. How time is easily wasted without we even realise it. Less than two weeks time, I'll arrive back at my sanctuary named Lembah Beringin, Selangor. It's time for me to focus again and this time for the better.

Once again, I've become a so-called tourist guide to my friend from Selangor. He wanted to explore the World Heritage City of Melaka. So, the best way is to find him a cheap budget hotel which is also only in walking distance to all the main historical sites around Melaka. It is a relatively new hotel which was opened on 15th December 2010 with the name Travellers Planet.

It sure is a great experience for him and also for me as I finally know how to go to a certain destinations in Melaka from a different starting point (I'm not very good with the road in Melaka, lol). We also managed to ate one of the best 'Asam Pedas' in Melaka with a very reasonable price. However, we failed to go to any 'Medan Ikan Bakar' in Melaka as we don't have enough time and also due to the traffic jam caused by the national Christmas celebration at the Portuguese Settlement.

All in all, it is a great weekend for me as I've also learnt that GPRS is a very useful technology especially for a traveller and also for those who finally have the urge to explore their own home town (lol).

Last but not least, the holiday season is coming to an end which also means a whole new year will starts and bring 1001 experiences to us. Hopefully, this coming year will bring us all a great opportunity to improve ourselves  mentally, physically and spiritually to help us in achieving any goal that we have set before. It is a continuous race in life to achieve anything that we want. Don't give up and the success might be ours.

As the saying goes,

"All talk and no actions make Jack a dull boy."

Permata Seni

Hello.

Did you guys watch TV2 just now. The young generation of Malaysia is so talented! It is a shame that this 'Permata Seni' program does not exist when I'm still in the age group (8-15 years old). LOL. I so wanted to perform at Istana Budaya, perhaps in the dance group. It is nice to know that there are still movements, clubs or even societies that have the initiative to preserve the culture of Malaysians. Nowadays, rap and hip hop have bombastically invaded our nation. As a cultural person, I'm so proud of the 'Permata Seni' group as it is the living proof that our own traditional culture will not be washed out by the flow of time.

Today, I've check my email and FINALLY Heriot-Watt gave me the conditional offer for the second year entry with AAB requirement. I'm so happy! The one university that I wanted to go the most finally reply my application with a good news. Right now, there's only one thing that I need to focus on which is homework. I originally found homeworks so tedious but I have come to my senses where homework actually is another form of revision that I have always use in the past years and right until now I have neglected the fact that knowledge is the key to success.

As my college song sounds;

"Knowledge is the key to freedom,

Study is the road to truth"

p/s: If there's any mistake on that please tell me.

So, Heriot-Watt here I come.

Last but not least;

"Someone who forget history are bound to repeat them"

- George Santayana

holiday season

Well, well, well. We're currently in the holiday season till 10th January next year. I have come this far, a year and a half in KYUEM. There's only 6 months left for me to prove that I worth the Scholarship given to me. It shouldn't be hard because I only need to study and make sure that I get a good result in all my exams. As a student, that is what expected from me.

Expectations, there are so hard to be fulfilled. But, there are not impossible. All that left is our own will whether to succeed of failed. Our ambition (supposedly we  have one) should be the one that drive us to a better future. But the problem that always occur in our lives is that we don't have a definite figure of our own ambition or even worse, we don't even have an ambition. Something that has been a plague among our young generation.

It sounds serious, but this is the fact that we should embrace in our lives. 

Last but not least, our future is not solely for us but it affects other people around us directly or indirectly. We live in a world filled or human beings that one way or another depend on each other to lead a happy life. Don't ever give up as that's the coward way of running away from reality and responsibilities.

"We may be someone to the world, but we may also be the world to someone"

Power

Throughout this whole month, the main thing that was discussed in my English Literature class is power struggle and what makes a person the rightful ruler. William Shakespeare has brilliantly penned a romance play (also known as Shakespeare's last play) entitled 'The Tempest' mainly discussing the reason why a person is the rightful ruler, the rightful master and even the rightful father. Although it sets somewhere on a magical Island, Shakespeare clearly shows human's greed of power to the extent that it might lead to total damage.

Whether we realise it or not, this is the reality of our world. People are fighting to gain the upper hand in every situation. Trades, politics, business, throne, marriage or even in offices.

"Power corrupt, absolute power corrupt absolutely."

One of the main questions that need an answer is what is defined by power? Is it when we have even only a subject, we are already powerful? Or does it lies on how we manage our responsibilities and duties? Or is it the way how we make others believe that we are more powerful than them, maliciously or not? These are the recurring statements that are too subjective to be answered.

Some may gain power by exploiting other's trust, some may gain power by betraying the supposed-to-be leaders and some may gain power through lineage which sometimes neglecting the person's ability to rule  a society. In our modern world, this could be seen clearly through all the wars and exploitations that somehow being blessed by the modern society.

Is this right? Do we actually have the right to exploit others? And most importantly, do we become a leader or a ruler just because of the title and the luxury or due to our own realisation that somebody needs to lead the society to their maximum potential while maintaining the culture and heritage. It is useless to create a new person that forgot about his own roots (well, that is my cultural side speaking).

Last but not least,

"Great power comes with great responsibilities."

bored to death

As usual, KY is as vacant as Mars (don't know where I get that simile) or at least that's what I thought (as I don't go out from my room). I don't feel well this entire weekend. My weekend starts with my swollen joint which causing me a hard time to walk. Maybe it's time for me to watch whatever I ate again (I  have a history with gout). I've stop taking any medicine about one year ago hoping that it will not repeat itself. Well, let's time decides.

Yearbook! We need to finish the designs by tomorrow. I feel guilty to all my colleagues as I don't have the flair in Adobe Photoshop which put a huge burden on my friend's shoulders. I can sketch an art on a piece of paper and that's the extent of my drawing abilities. No one, and I mean it, no one wants to be the head of graphics department. What with AS and A2 exams next year.

Again, I've wasted most of my times watching movies. I've finished the Step Up trilogy, Letters To Juliet and a few others. All in all, I've watch about 7 movies this entire weekend. What an achievement! (lol) Kent has offered me a place in their university given that I achieve 340 points in my A-Level exams. It is not impossible but I need to push myself to reach the best result while at the same time pass the sponsor's requirement. I need to see Mr. Azman, the Deputy Headmaster on 23rd November due to my last result.

*Sigh. Life is hard, but if it's not hard it's not life. Challenges are troublesome but they make us grow. Advices are annoying but they might be useful.

Don't throw away others opinions but keep it as our guidance. They might be wrong but it doesn't hurt to prepare ourselves for any possibilities.

Life is short, make full use of it.

With love, Who Am I.