What Are Words

Hello guys, it has been a long time since I posted anything in this blog. So here is a song that I've recently found. The words are truly powerful (at least to me). Hope u guys enjoy it. the singer is Chris Medina.

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent

just for me And I know I'm meant

to be where I am And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

bumi asing

tanah ini belum pernah aku jejaki

deruan angin ini belum pernah aku rasai

binaan ini belum pernah aku temui

terasingkah aku?

tidak, semua itu hanya khayalan yang aku cipta

hanya omongan yang aku reka

hanya seruan yang aku suarakan

kerna aku mahu bermula baru

bermula dari titik ini

bermula semula mencari erti diri

mampukah aku temui zarah itu?

kerna yang tinggal kini hanya sebuah

perjalanan...

Titian Hidup

Aku sayang mereka

Aku hargai mereka

Namun aku tidak mengerti bagaimana

Harus aku tunjukkan pada mereka

Setiap detak harapan jauh di lubuk hatiku ini

Adakah ini penyudah kepada semua persoalan

Yangku rasakan tidak mampu untukku tanggung

Yang tak mampuku pikul

Yang tak mampuku gendong

Perlukah aku mencari semua titik-titik

Penyambung kehidupan ini

Atau haruskah aku berserah pada takdir

Dan membiarnya hanyut bersama duniaku

Ini bukan dunia aku!

Ini bukan udara aku,

Ini bukan nyawa aku!

Ini bukan pilihan aku

Kerna semua ini tanggungjawabku...

Amanah yang tak mungkin terpikulkan

Amanah yang tidak dapat disempurnakan

Amanah yang pasti dipersoalkan

Di suatu dunia baru asli

Satu hari nanti.

Aku merintih, aku meratap,

Aku mengharapkan kesudahan yang baik

Namunku tak pasti adakah ia milikku

Kerna aku sedar siapa aku

Kerna aku ingat segala tingkahku

Kerna aku faham balasan buatku

Mereka bilang aku sombong

Bongkak, lalai denagn nikmat dunia

Tapi aku harap, semua ini tak akan memesongkan aku

Dari laluan Mustaqim

Ku harapkan bimbingan-Mu

Buat terakhir kali...

Asyhadu Allailahaillallah, Waasyhaduanna Muhammadurrasulullah

Allahuakhbar.

p/: Kesedihan membelenggu namun hidup harus terus maju. Akankah tiba ruang yang amat kudambakan itu?

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah aku...

Dunia Itu

Dunia itu…

Adakah ia punya milikku?

Atau aku hanya sekadar secebis kuman di tengah pusaran

Yang pasti menghanyutkan,

Menyesatkan,

Mengabaikan,

Mencercakan,

Mencelakan sekeping daging

Bernama hati.

Aku sedar bahawa dunia ini:

Dunia yang penuh keasyikkan ini,

Tidak sempurna

Tidak bernyawa

Tidak berirama

Selari dengan nafas dunia nyata

Kerna ini hanyalah dunia

Ciptaan aku semata-mata.

Dunia milikku…

Dimana aku pemiliknya,

Dimana aku pengikutnya,

Dimana aku pesalahnya…

Semuanya kerna,

Aku tahu aku takkan diterima

Dalam dunia nyata.

Mampukah sesuatu membawaku pulang?

Menarikku ke jalan keduniaan?

Menyediakan aku ke jalan kemudian?

Menyucikan aku untuk kesekian kali?

Memimpinku ke jambatan hakiki?

Memastikan aku diterima kembali?

TIDAK!

Aku tidak yakin dengan diriku sendiri…

Kini aku hanya membiarkan nasibku

Beromongan sendiri

Jauh dari masyarakat duniawi

Kerna yang penting kini

Hanyalah redha-Mu;

Ya Ilahi…

p/s: Congrates Topazians for winning another Bangsawan trophy...

I'm an emo?

Hi guys, it's good to write something again although there's no one who will care about anything that I've wrote here. As I've said before, it's my sanctuary so I can write anything that I want here. He3, enough with all those nonsense, we'll go straight to the core of this post.

I believe I'm an emo. Ha3, go figure. Sometimes I'll feel very happy and in a second I'll become moody. Is there's any explanation on this change of mood. It's like a mood swing (though I'm never going to have period - lol).

To be more specific, I don't feel a damn thing right now. I know I'm quite disappointed with my performance in my recent final papers but all those regrets and remorse disperse simply just like the bubble on the beach. Am I being ignorant of my own feelings or am I simply don't care any more about my life. I'm miserable but I went through life as nothing is wrong. At one point or another, I feel like I'm living a pathetic life but that is the challenge that I need to face to have a meaningful life. Right?

I so don't know what to do right now even though this is my final examination week. I so don't have the will to push myself any more. Will I regret this moment later in my life? Can I simply shut my eyes and ignore everything that revolves around me? I seriously hope I could.

God, help me as I'm truly lost right now!

What am I going to be?

Hello guys. How's your week so far? Hope everything is good. Moving on to my topic for today; What am I going to be in 5 years time? Some of us might think that this is not a question to be asked to a 20 years old person. However, as wise man says "Our step today decides where we will land tomorrow." It is such a simple question but it is very hard to answer.

There's only one reason why I'm asking this.

1) I'm starting to doubt the choice of my future career!

I'm in a very massive dilemma whether to still involve myself in the world of numbers or take a 180' turn into the literature world. Why future is so complicated? Why can't it be as simple as choosing an ice cream flavour?

I'm at a junction which I seriously hate!

Btw, tomorrow I'll be facing my toughest paper of all time; Further Maths Applied. Am I ready yet? I really hope I am ready but again, NO SLEEP FOR ME TONIGHT!

p/s: Just hope that I'll not be late to the exam hall as my previous Further Maths Pure paper...

Rolling in the deep

Sorry guys, I'm freaking cold right now in the IT Lab although this is Malaysia (I wonder how freezing it could be out there in Scotland). Enough with that, I think that this is a very nice song to be sang (feels like singing it out loud right in this room - lol). Here it is, Adele...

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare.

See how I'll leave, with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.

The scars of your love, remind me of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it
To the beat

Baby I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love, remind you of us.
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could of had it all

Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it
To the beat

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
But you played it
With a beating

Throw your soul threw every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

We could of had it all
We could of had it all
We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand
And you played it to the beat

We could of had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside your hand

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it
You played it to the beat