New updates...

Well, well, well... First of all, I would like to wish everyone a very happy new year 2012 (though it's already the seventh day of the year - it's still new right :))... Currently I'm continuing my part time job as a cashier @ waiter in a restaurant in Kuala Selangor... I'm no longer working The Spring, Kuching, Sarawak... I don't really have a material prepared before writing this as I usually did... Nevertheless, thanks to all the new followers for supporting me and are willing to read my thoughts :)

I might be wrong here but I think someone likes me (except the one whom already confessed to me last year)... On my behalf, I do feel something but what is the feeling? Is it like? Is it pity? Is it chemistry? Is it family? Or is it LOVE? I don't even know what this is... But if it meant to last, I hope I can make it crystal clear to myself first... Furthermore, I still have 2 1/2 years to go before I finish my degree and about 2 years more for my masters plan...

Anyhow, working here have been so tiring... We closed after 12 am for 2 days in a row and it's taking it's toll on me now... I have this red marking on my body like I was attacked by a group of mosquitoes... We closed at 5 pm today so that all the workers can get some rest and we're back on business at 2.30 pm tomorrow... Hope I can get enough sleep to restore my energies :)

Now, 2011 already ended and it's time for us to prepare ourselves for 2012... My plan; work, study, get HD for all subjects, make others happy, make myself happy (if only I know how)... I also need to update this blog more often as I do need to record a few things as memories...

First thing first, an important date which will guide the rest of my degree years here in Swinburne: 20 JANUARY 2012!!! It's the results day, hu3... I'm quite afraid to know my result :( Anyway, I'm still hoping for the best...

That's all for now I think, if I have any new ideas, issues, songs, poems, or anything interesting (at least to me) I'll post it here and share it with you guys...

Best wishes & lots of love... Asri

The first time

For the first time in my whole life, I'm travelling when almost everybody is still sleeping. It's quite a surprise even for me that I manage to do this on my own. I've longed for this moment to arrive but I've never thought that it will be this challenging. KL Sentral is a totally different place tonight. No rush, no kids, no trains, only McD n Seven Eleven + a few travellers. It's a quiet n peaceful environment as oppose to the busy and hectic city days.

So here I am, sitting in this corner, writing about this experience. An unexpected journey which I'll appreciate forever =) An attempt to surprise my mom n family. Wish me luck.

Love... Asri

Inilah yang terbaik

Kata itu semuanya dusta

Ceritera yang tidak akan pernah aku laungkan

untuk didengari dan dihayati

seluruh pelosok duniawi

Kerna semua itu hanyalah mimpi

Yang pasti tidak akan aku gapai

di dunia realiti.

Bersalahkah aku untuk bermimpi

Dipeluk dengan penuh rasa kasih

Ditatang dengan penuh rasa sayang

Sedangkan aku juga mahu menyayangi

Mempunyai seorang teman untuk berkongsi

Tanpa sebarang motif atau ilusi

Salahkah aku untuk berharap

menemui seorang yang boleh aku percayai

Untukku hamparkan seluruh jiwaku

Kerana aku percayakan hubungan itu?

Aku kering dan gering untuk menunggu

ibarat mencari air di tengah padang pasir

Sebak, sendiri.

Mampukah aku? Layakkah aku?

Air mata ini sudah letih mengalir

Mengenang semua janji yang takkan pernah termakbul

Aku mengerti dan aku fahami

Takdirku sebegini.

Lalu biarkanlah aku sendiri

Kerna bagiku,

Inilah yang terbaik...

Thousand Years

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

-Sonnet 18, William Shakespeare 

p/s: Song by Christina Perri, soundtrack for Breaking Dawn: Part 1

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed that I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Ceritera

Pencarian, penemuan, penerimaan

Penderitaan, pertanyaan, pertuduhan

Semua imbuhan itu bergelumang, hanyut

dalam telaga keruh tidak berpenghuni

Membiarkan semuanya tenggelam

lemas dalam pelukan kekalutan

hitam, kelam, malap

Ibarat menuju penghujung yang tiada

dalam kewujudan.

Kekalutan dan kehancuran itu

tidak akan pernah aku dustakan

Mengapa harus aku padam memori itu

Ingatan yang mendewasakan

Mengajar aku erti sebenar kehidupan

Mendidik aku menjadi tegar

Menempuh badai menggulung yang cuba

mengguling. Mengiringi aku ke lembah terasing.

Ibarat beting pasir di tengah lautan

Dikelilingi kebiruan,dilitupi keputihan

disapa kesepian berseorangan.

Aku mungkin bukan yang pertama

Tapi aku bukan yang terakhir

Buat kesekian kali ceritera ini bercerita

Mengarang sebuah lagenda lupa

Coretan insan tanpa permata

Tinta tubuh tidak berjiwa

Tanda kasih pada dunia hinggap

Yang bakal tamat...

Bila-bila masa.

Beribu Sesalan

p/s: The divas: Jaclyn Victor, Ning Baizura, Shila Amzah


Ku susuri malam ini

Yang tidak berbintang sunyi sepi
Juga rembulan dah menghilang
Dalam kelam ku sendiri

Ku mencari hembus bayu
Yang selalu berbisik madah rindu
Kini membisu dalam sayu
Tidak ku temu suaramu

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku

Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini diiringi
Kisah janji dimungkiri lagi

Kekasihku di jalanan yang berliku
Di saat ku perlukanmu
Tertutup jua segalanya terhadapmu
Di sini ku tersedu-sedu

Setelah cinta pergi
Ku mengusung duka ini
Diiringi

Kisah janji
Dimungkiri
Dimungkiri

Sia-sia ku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Sia-siaku
Mencintaimu
Setia padamu
Percayakanmu

Sebak dadaku
Retak hatiku
Luka jiwaku
Dihiris pilu

Beribu sesalanku

Waiting Outside The line

p/s: This song is popularise by Greyson Chance. Enjoy it...

You’ll never enjoy your life,

living inside the box

You’re so afraid of taking chances,

how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations,

force you to play it safe

Get rid of all the hesitation,

it’s time for you to seize the day

Instead of just sitting around

and looking down on tomorrow

You gotta let your feet off the ground,

the time is now

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,

I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Try to have no regrets

even if it’s just tonight

How you gonna walk ahead

if you keep living behind

Stuck in my same position,

you deserve so much more

There’s a whole world around us,

just waiting to be explored

Instead of just sitting around

and looking down on tomorrow

You gotta let your feet off the ground,

the time is now, just let it go

The world will force you to smile

I’m here to help you notice the rainbow

Cause I know,

What’s in you is out there

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting,

I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

I’m trying to be patient (I’m trying to be patient)

the first step is the hardest (the hardest)

I know you can make it,

go ahead and take it

I’m Waiting, waiting, just waiting I’m waiting

I’m waiting, waiting, just waiting

I’m waiting, waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

Waiting outside the lines

You’ll never enjoy your life

Living inside the box

You’re so afraid of taking chances,

How you gonna reach the top?