EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WTF..... Why the heck the questions are so hardddd.....

I know that it is partly my fault (fornotstudyingenoughandfocusinthenotes). But still, I didn't study that much for last year's papers but I still manage to get good result on harder papers... Urggghhhh. I'm so stress right now. I just hope that I can compensate my faults these past years in my next paper. Further Maths Applied... God help me as I'm begging You to grant me this wish; I want to fly to UK. Begging without any effort from my side will not gives me anything. So, starting from today, STUDY and don't procrastinate. It's a waste of 2 years if I didn't fly at the end... Hu3...

p/s: This is more of a reminder for me as it is also for others, STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jendela

Mungkin kau telah bosan

Bersandiwara di pentas tanpa pelita

Mungkin kau telah temui

Cahaya neon penghias dunia duka

Kelam tapi tenteram

Seperti hatiku di saat ini.

Dia hadir setelah semuanyaku kambus

Ku tanam sedalam mungkin jauh ke dasar hati

Kerna aku tak sanggup - 

merintih lagi.

Menunggu ombak segar pabila tsunami

Namun dia merubah dan menggubah

Semuanya menjadi mungkin.

Datangnya tak pernah aku duga

Namun kelopak mawar itu takkanku persia

Segalanya mungkin hilang setelah seketika

Namun harumannya akanku puja sepanjang masa

Aku tak berani membuka semua pintu hatiku

Cukuplah sekadarku selak jendela

Untuk kebahagiaan itu bertapak semula.

Penakut?

Ya, itu aku. Tapi takutku punya pengertian

Bukan omongan kosong yang menjengkelkan

Bukan prasangka yang tidak beralasan

Bukan kiasan menutup kekhilafan

Aku dalam penuh kesedaran

Membina angan-angan yang aku harap

Takkan berkecai.

Semuanya kini aku serahkan pada-Mu

kerna...

Aku cinta padamu.

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder why did

All these things happened

Yesterday’s rain drop keeps on spitting those curses

On this otherwise fragile land

Whom life depends on the stars

Bringing me back to six feet under

The extravagant towers, suffocating him

To no end.

Perhaps this is his destiny on this journey

Flew like the wind; unseen

Leaving marks for others but nothing left

For himself. They think it’s fair.

“The world revolves continuously whether you like it or not,

And your mere existence causes nothing.”

Like an arrow from the inferno

Stabbing me straight to the core.

Do I have one?

Keep on searching but not looking

Keep on targeting but not aiming

Keep on chanting but not listening

Where does that put us?

A lab rat ready to be sacrificed, willingly or not

I’m jealous of the rascal under the harbour stairs

Hidden yet successful

In making its own existence known

He’ll climb the stairs - halfway

Then turns back forever just like the previous affairs

Leaving me stuck on the bottomless pit

Of a black hole -

Alone.

Hati

Berkata pada yang melihat,

berbisik pada yang mendengar,

Berlagu pada yang rindu,

Bertasbih pada yang satu,

Mampukah aku terus hidup dalam kepompong nafsu,

Yang membakar hingga mati semua zarah kecilku.

Aku tahu itu semua salahku, silapku, khilafku,

Namun masih adakah ruang untuk kuperbetul

Semua rongga yang telah aku tebuk dengan sepenuh nyawa

Masih adakah ruang untukku bernafas semula,

Masih adakah tinta untuk ku sebar pada semua,

Bahawa aku juga insan biasa.

Tersimpang aku dari jalan itu bukan hanya kerna dia,

Bukan hanya kerna mereka,

Bukan hanya kerna dunia,

Tapi kerna aku terleka dengan mainan mata,

Yang sentiasa menggoda, menarik, memujuk,

Agar aku jatuh ke lembah noda.

Aku masih sedar gerakan tanganku,

Aku melihat langkah kakiku,

Aku merasa kelembutan itu,

Namun hatiku terus membatu kelu,

Mengeras bagai berlian hitam yang tak mungkin terpecahkan,

Mungkinkah?

Adakah masih ada waktu untukku kembali pada hari itu,

Hari aku tercipta hanya untuk memohon,

Aku tak mampu!

Kiniku hanya menunggu waktu dan ketika,

Detik akhir untukku katakan pada semua,

"Jangan dirindui diri ini kerna aku tak layak menerimanya."

Trials

First of all, I'm so proud of my previous school as they managed to get the 2nd place for the SPM 2010 results. Congratulations juniors TGBians. I'm pleased to acknowledge you guys as my juniors. With a GPA of 0.91, you guys have set a very high standard for our college.

Next on my list, trials. I will have to face 12 papers in 2 weeks starting this Monday. Arggghhhhh. Can I do this? Will I get a good result from it? How am I going to get an excellent result when all I'm doing is playing games. Lol. Seriously, I'm spending most of time playing games these days. Asri!!!!!! Wake up from this dreamland and prepare for the ultimate battle!!!

updates

Well hello guys... It has been quite some time since I last wrote something here. Still in my holiday mood right now. Tomorrow I'll be back in Lembah Beringin, my beloved blue college. But before that, I want to enjoy my last day as a free man today because starting tomorrow and once I step my foot on KYUEM compound, I'm stuck for about 3 whole months. Stress!!

But still, it is for my own good. Exams with 12 papers, I'l nail it to the top. A*A*A*; that's my target. See you guys (KY citizen... lol) tomorrow onwards. For the others, take care and till my next coming post. The creative section is in a terrible need of ideas. Yearbook!! Got to go... Take care guys, bye...

Finally...

Hello guys. Last night has been a  very hectic night for me. Making sure that the performers' attire are good and ready were so tiring. Thankfully, we won the best traditional dance and the best choreography awards! Congratulations to Fathin for her great choreography and not forgetting, the committed dancers; Athira, Faara, Yasmin, Fira, Nurin, Syahira, Syida, Alia, Faiza, Meredith and Carolyn. You guys have shown me that all our hard works paid off.

To the dikir barat team, don't be sad because the journey have been so intriguing and great that for me you guys are the real winner. Some may ask me why? It's mainly because, in any performance win or loose is inevitable. But you guys have shown me that you guys can be together in this desperate condition to learn and to take the initiative of learning the Malay culture. And for that, I as the younger generation of the nation are so proud of you guys. You guys rock!

Topazians, tonight all of you have shown me that it is not all about being a winner, instead, respecting the others and enjoying the moment were far more important in any event. Again, all of you are the winners. Congratulations!

Congrates also to the Diamonders for clenching the First place in dikir barat. But I didn't see the performance! Abang RC, quickly put out the video, I want to see it.